"Green is the color of living plants and is often associated with growth. Green is the color of the heart chakra. A green shade to your mood ring might indicate a healing time, a feeling of love, etc."
.... Spot on! Heart chakra indeed! Since Monday morning my heart feels like it's going to burst out of my chest, but in a good way... in a hugely expansive (b/c expansive alone isn't enough, I need to be redundant) way. I've had so much energy and felt so much love that I've really exceeded the acceptable ooey gooey mushy cheesy quotient this week, and it's only Thursday! I don't know if it's the antibiotics... In addition to vanquishing my throat of all strep bacteria grossness, maybe for me personally Amoxicilin acts a a kind of psychotropic drug. Maybe it's the gluten ban I've reinstated, the fact that I've been making my juicer work up a sweat this week, or the fact that I dove back into dance classes. OR maaaaaybe it was the news I received Monday morning at work. For those who either didn't see my post on Facebook this week or didn't speak to me directly, the dance festival that was supposed to be in Montenegro ( I know, I know...where the hell is that?) at the end of May apparently got moved to Italy in July..... around the time of my birthday. BOOM! I mean I was super excited to go to Montenegro, hell you know me, I'll happily travel just about anywhere for the sake of travel....but come on, Italy feels like another home to me now.
The spaces cannot accommodate our aerial skills so Rina has something else brewing in her genius mind, hence my return to dance classes this week. Mama's got start conditioning again :-) For awhile, I had taken a break from technique based dance classes because simply, I needed the break. Last night however after warming up with a rockin' Yoga Booty Ballet class barefoot, I pulled on a pair of slipppers and entered an actual ballet class again.... my first in 3 or 4 years! When I made my return to dance and decided to pursue it professionally back in 2003 I was taking a very classic and strict Russian technique class from a very classic and strict Bulgarian teacher. In the beginning it was exactly what I needed, but as I began to train with Rina my body no longer liked the rigidity that that class was forcing on me. In either late 2008 or early 2009, I tweaked my knee pretty severely during a ronde jambe exercise because I was not only overly turned out, but I knew it and was muscling through it anyway. Basically my body said, "Fuck you!" I then turned my attention to the likes of aerial work, Nia, yoga, and YBB. Being older, wiser and more in tune with my body as a dancer, I entered that ballet class with a whole new approach...and it felt fantastic! The truth is, ballet is my first love and it's the best and quickest way for me to get back into performance shape. In a couple weeks time I hope to build up to three classes on Wednesdays; YBB, Basic Ballet, then Ballet 1-2.
The fact that Monday was the Chinese New Year, ushering in the Year of the (Water) Dragon may also be contributing to this stellar week, and my overflowing heart. I've heard and read that this Dragon year is when seeds that have been planted finally come to fruition, so much so that it's kind of like 'be careful what you wish for'.... My girls and I (minus DeLise sadly) are having a Chinese New Year fire burning ceremony to release whatever is holding energy that no longer serves us, a little Witches of Eastwick if you will ;-) I would advise you all to do the same, in your own way of course!
Anyway, whether it's just this week or a condition that's here to stay for awhile, the butterflies of excitement in my heart and stomach, this constant buzz, a heart cracked wide open is most definitely welcome and a condition for which I am inexplicably grateful. This was how I felt virtually every day on my trip once I left the first farm and started anew at Riccardo's.
This song makes me happy!
(and accurately describes the buzz I'm feeling)
by The Naked & Famous