I hope everyone enjoyed their holiday whether they were with family, friends or rollin' solo like I did. Yep that's right. My last Thanksgiving in the States for awhile, and I hibernated like a mo'fo....like only a true introvert can. I had quite a few lovely invitations, all from my favorite people, that at any other time I would've been all over. But since
A) I wasn't feeling so great at the start of the week as I mentioned when the movers were here,
2) I am mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually exhausted from this whole past month, and
C) I expended all my extrovert energy last night at Rochelle's birthday, the thought of celebrating in my Court cave was sounding better and better. No driving, no talking, no jam-hands (aka kids)?....Ding, ding, ding - we have a winner!
I'll take my gratitude with a side of Garlic Chicken from Versailles por favor. Thanksgiving L.A style bitches!
Apart from going out to pick up my food for which I didn't even bother to change out of my pjs, I didn't leave my bed... (or rather, the amaze-balls air mattress I'm borrowing from Tim) ALL day! Fucking heaven I tell you. After devouring garlic laden chicken, black beans and plantains Zoe and I settled in to watch National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation, keeping alive my family's Thanksgiving tradition of ushering in the Christmas season with laughter and perspective.
I might've gone the unconventional route (surprise, surprise) when it comes to celebrating one of, if not my favorite holiday but that is going to be number one on my 'Thankful' list --
- Taking care of and honoring myself! I'm of no use to anyone in my life if I don't give myself what I need to be my best..... and I think we've all seen me when I haven't, it's not pretty.... not pretty at all.
- Being so close to my family. My dad's call this morning started my day with a smile, followed by my mom's and my usually lengthy chat where I felt like I was right beside her as she prepared for her 'orphan feast', and the sweet voice of my even sweeter sister ended my day as I sat with her outside watching the fire. We're spread out all over the place, but it doesn't matter. I actually think it's good, the miles and time differences have been good practice for this next year. These three people think I'm some kind of wonderful, and have raised me to believe it too. I get my strength and chutzpah from their unconditional love, support, and confidence in me.
- Having, hands down, the greatest friends on the face of the earth...No, in the universe. No...in the history of ever. Their love and generosity astounds me. It knocks me on my ass in fact. Their hearts are more open and their lights shine brighter than the average bear. These people are extra-ordinary. They see me, they support me, they push me, they call me on my shit and also sing my praise. Rochelle reminded me of a common line in one of our favorite shows, Once Upon a Time... "All magic comes with a price." It feels like the price of all the grace surrounding this magical time is having to say good-bye to these people. That pill is getting bigger and harder to swallow each day.
- Being in love with a man who embodies all of the above, and makes me laugh....a lot!
- Continuing to step outside my comfort zone and realize that sometimes the only transportation is a leap of faith.
- Receiving a steady shower of magic... and HEARTS! From getting my visa approved in 4 days to weighing in at 200lbs LESS than my moving quote to getting to stay an extra week in my apartment for free.... I feel like with every heart I find, it peels away a layer of some kind of fog. When we start moving through our days/our lives more consciously we just SEE things differently. For me it shows up as hearts. When this fog lifts, more magic flows in.
- Having the next three days off before my last week of work and life in L.A .... back into my cave I go :-)
9 Days Left......
Till next week: Love, Hugs and other 'Drugs'